Monday, 13 May 2013
Now it just seems to do its own thing.
This morning I found my heating had come on so it must have been chilling last night. You'll be surprise to know I have my heating set quite low as I hate being too warm even in the winter. I think it's because when I visit my mother in the nursing home she asleep because it's so warm it makes the residents sleepy.
Last Friday, my husband and I went to see Mum. My mother is in a wheelchair and isn't able to do anything for herself now as her muscles have wasted away. I'm pleased to say she still knows who Russell and I are when we visit her, even though she does get muddled and confused by what day of the week it is, when things have happened and who people are, but this is understandable when you have no structure to your day and you're not planning anything for the future i.e. days out, family get together, holidays appointments etc. Things that mark the passing of time for us with busy lives.
As you all know, because I have said before, we like to take mum out, in her wheelchair, to the shops. I would dearly love to take her out further afield and visit new places, but she hates going to far and doesn't like traveling in a car. The last time we took her out she kept crying that she was falling and wanted to go home, so now take her around the shops until she tells us she had enough and wants to go home.
Mum has good days and bad day... On good days, she is chatty, telling us about people she's seen and talked too. These are people she hasn't see for years or like my father, are no longer with us, or some longer ago remembered time. My mother was never a great talker, well, not to me. I always felt my mother had a secret life. whether it was because I remind her of her own mother, who was a very upstanding lady who like things to be done properly and was very well dressed, where my mother was always very haphazard about everything in life. Her attitude was one of 'That will do'.
Many years ago, I went to see my mum when she lived in her own flat. It was the first time we had really talked to each other. I had learnt quite early with my mother that you must never question her, but allow her to free flow and just listen. She told me that her mother was always telling her off and complaining about everything she said and did. She liked living on her own, because she had no one to answer to and she could do whatever she wanted. Many of the carers at her home describe mum as a 'spirited lady'.
On her bad day, she's still pleased to see us, but apart from 'Hello' 'yes, please take me out', and 'I've had enough can we go home now.' she doesn't say anything else.
Friday was one of her bad days. We were told she was grumpy and feeling fed up when we arrived. As we were walking along the street I chat to her about nothing much, (which I wonder if she finds it annoying in itself :-) As a child, I was chatty when I came in from school, wanting to tell her all about what I did at school only to be told to shut up because she was watching the TV) the weather, my garden, asking her if she's seen anyone, and Russell and my trip to Whitby, normally if it her solemn day she remains quiet and unresponsive I would shut up.
So that what happened on Friday, I shut up and we walked on in silent, when Mum suddenly piped up, How are you getting on with your book, Paula?
You could have knocked me down with a feather, she brought tears to my eyes.
Bless her. 'Mum I loved you.'
So in answer to my dear old mum who will be 80 this week. Happy Birthday, Mum! It coming along nicely, but so far no one loves it enough to take it on... but who knows what will happen by the end of this week.
Positive thinking is needed in large doses about my book and the weather too.
Have a great week everyone.
Paula R C
Tuesday, 7 May 2013
After reading a check list to make sure we were suitable, we had to filling in a simple form to say they could contact our own doctors if they felt we need further tests, we were ready.
A lovely lady called Lola checked Russell and I together. She started with me. Checking my weight, height, cholesterol, BMI and blood pressure. She then asked whether I smoked, exercised regularly and eat fruit and vegetables and how much alcohol I consume.
Use the NHS traffic light system, I passed with fly colours as I was green on everything as I don't smoke or drink alcohol. So as long as I carry on keeping fit and eating sensibly I shall live a long health life.
With my friend, Ana back from her holiday, I'm able to enjoy our long walks again. This morning we went to the blue bell woods and was pleased to find them in flower.
After coming back from the Whitby Goth Festival, I have been floored with a rotten cold and was unable to focus on my writing. Most of the last few days I have been busy in my garden potting about and tidying up. Now my head is clearing and I can breath again, I'm ready to hit the keys once more.
Still no news to tell you about my novel, but as they say, no news is good news :-) Here's to hoping I may have some good news soon.
Thursday, 2 May 2013
At the moment the score is 3 out of 7 have rejected it.
This has left me with having a problem settling my mind on a new idea for the next book. I know I shouldn't write for the market, but it's hard not to think about it, when you are going to be writing 85k words and putting in long hours while editing, rewriting and thinking over plot ideas just to have someone say 'We liked it, but not enough'.
Can you imagine going to work and then at the end of the month your boss says, 'We liked your work for this month, but not enough to pay you. Better luck next time!' Hey hoo!
I've always found one of most commonest question asked at any talk, given by an established author, interesting. Where does the writer get their ideas from? Surely the question should be, once you have an idea how do you keep it developing? I have plenty of ideas, even have great openings, lists of characters, setting, and plotlines... then nothing. My fear is 'has it been done before?'
Every time I pick up a novel to read I get passed the first few chapters, and then find myself think ... 'Oh, this is like so & so's book I've just finished reading.' This maybe because I have read so many similar books because these are the sort of books I enjoy reading. The fact is my taste is broad as I try to read a wide range of genres and authors. I find if I stay true to one kind I become bored which is why I'm a book slut really.
This morning my husband found me sit in bed 'Staring off into space'
'Are you all right?' said he.
'Yes, I'm just trying to decide what sort of book I should write next.'
I had been sitting reading Susan Hill's 'Woman in Black'. Before we went to the Goth Festival, I had an idea to write a gothic novel. Hey hoo guess what, it's been done before. I know there is no new ideas, just a new way of writing them, but I just don't want someone to start my novel and say' Oh, this is just like so & so's books I've just finished reading.'
Having had people say to me after reading my published short stories... I enjoyed your twist at the end. I wasn't expecting that. I want the same said about my novels. I remember years ago, in the early 1980's before I thought it was possible that I could write, reading a collections of short Sci-Fi stories. I made a comment to a friend that I couldn't write a short story because I couldn't come up with anything new.
'Aha,' said he, 'that's because you haven't thought of anything yet.'
So that's what I'm doing today, Thinking of something new.
I'm going to be making a list of ideas of what sort of books I should try to write next and hopefully it will be a new idea :-)
Have a great day,
Paula R C.
Monday, 29 April 2013
Thank you to everyone who allowed me to take their photograph and I look forward to seeing you all at the next festival.
Now I must get back to my writing.
Paula R C
Tuesday, 23 April 2013
|Feeling in Gothic Fiction.|
Like most of you said, it's best to stay true to yourself or at least to what you enjoy writing.
I just enjoy looking at the darker side of life and having a twist in my tale so I think this is where my writing must take me if I'm going to be happy with my work.
I have a copy of the Love, Mystery and Misery in my book collection, which I've been meaning to read for some time so I've taken time out from writing to read it, hoping it will inspire me with my new novel idea.
I hope you all have a great weekend
Paula R C
Saturday, 20 April 2013
At the moment, I'm not sure what I'm doing. My mind keeps jumping back and forth between rewriting some of my finished novel, working on the new novel or writing some short stories.
The truth is I'm feeling a bit lost and I'm not sure who I am as a writer. Am I dark, fantasy or middle road... Who do I want to be as a writer.
I'm more sure about what I'm 'not', but that's not helping either.
Are there just too many writers writing or just not enough great writers writing amazing books?
Friday, 12 April 2013
Didn't do much on my new novel yesterday. I was busy doing research when I came across some old memorial cards for Readman in North Yorkshire. I have a large collection of them with the idea to research the families. Yesterday, I decided to put one in a lovely old frame I had in my writing room. A five minute job, said she LOL. I landed up check out the family history and found a link to my family. You can guess what happened next.... Well, I had three more cards who were Readman too so I had to check them out too. :-)
Have a great weekend,
Paula R C
Have a great weekend,
Paula R C